After working for more than a year, this is the very first leave I submitted to the management. For this year’s Raya, I have set a goal: To gain back the 2 kg I lost during this fasting month. Staring at my reflection, I couldn’t find even a part on my body that I can consider as erm… sexy. The worse part of it is that I even think my butt has shrunk. No kidding! *slap slap*

But I love my tummy though. :)

My arms? Don’t even get there. Remind me to stuff some fat tissue there too. They look too… mascular. 

The reason why I am whining about my body is because I don’t want to look like a walking skeleton. Bless the gene!

Come November, I am going to make a come-back. I’ll start to become Balance and Jam junkie again. Dancing and stretching alone are boring. Enjoying ‘em in a group is better.

This is probably my final entry for October even when I am already back on the 30th. November means training my already small appetite to behave during lunch. I am on a mission. A mission which requires some cash.

There are a few types of people that I simply find it almost impossible to tolerate with. One of them is the type who like to cancel appointments at the very last minute without early notice.

This is basically the disappointment that I wanted to share with you a couple of weeks ago, of which I thought is no longer in mind.

So, why is it so hard for someone to deliver a cancellation in a proper manner? Why must you keep it quiet as if it never actually happen? And why can’t you just be honest and come clean with the explanation instead of using excuses that sound really stupid like "I’ve totally forgotten about the exam I’m supposed to take" or "Oh, I just remember the meeting I am supposed to attend." or other similar reasons, which you find unpardonable (why don’t you share with me some of the lamest excuses you used to get from people).

Is it hard for you to check your schedule before committing to any plan? Does it ever occur to you that by not doing so, you will disappoint the other party or worse, you are in the running towards severing a friendship/relationship? Lets put it this way: Do you still have your common sense intact?

I think people will change as they grow older. But I guess I shouldn’t assume such way. Some old (bad) habits are hard to get rid of. I do have my bad habits too. I used to be a very cranky, moody, ill-tempered woman. However, as I grow with time, I’ve learnt how to tone it down and be a more reasonable person who uses both mind and heart instead of allowing only the heart to do the deciding (and trust me, I am still learning).

But then again, I am talking about me. Self motivation counts and usually works if you really want it. But to get people to see the same perspective like what you do is the hardest task to do. You are trying to change people from doing what they are accustomed to, stuffs they are comfortable with.

All I am asking is very simple. I need proper notification in advance and not a few hours before the actual appointment or not to leave me in the dark, waiting for your call. Don’t you know by doing so you are digging your own grave? An SMS will do the dirty job for you if you want to avoid hearing sarcastic reply from me. That’s all I need.

And please put it in a very professional/acceptable manner/intonation. I can detect excuses. If you have to lie, lie properly until that person can’t differentiate between honesty and a lie (read in a very sarcastic intonation please).

Have I guided you well enough for you to apply it next time should you need to do another last-minute plan cancellation?

I hope so…

What is the relation between Friday and Kay? If you say both words rhyme, the answer is No.

The answer is, Kay cannot live without Friday and Friday is not the same without Kay.

Are you beginning to comprehend the link here?

Good.

Remember the last entry where I wished to share my disappointment towards something/someone? Unfortunately, if I were to send this news to an editor, the first thing she would do is to point this to the shredder. Far too ‘basi’ to be published. Another reason to support this action is the fact that it’s Friday and I love Friday regardless the status. (though some senseless people will try not to do anything foolish for this is a very ‘pantang’ day. Yeah yeah… PANTANG alright… *make faces*)

Pandora has started to play backdated song already. I need a blank CD. Have to replace the MP3s with the new one. At times like these, I need new songs to accompany me on my way to work. No more Mis-teeq and Dishwalla in the repeat mode.

On a lighter note, I am going to get my next month’s paycheck soon. Must be very careful…very very careful or else, "tah-ta" to December vacation.

Come the first day of next week, I am going to dread this entry because the day will spell M-O-N-D-A-Y…

I hate Monday (unless Saturday comes after that day.)

Boy, this is chronic!

I couldn’t believe myself. I just couldn’t believe it.

The first thing I did at 8.30 in the freaking hazy Monday morning is arguing with a stranger over picture sharing.

You can’t blame me. It is Monday. When you’re infected with the Monday bugs, you tend to act abnormally. You will not be your truest self and the kid in you will be unleashed.

Now that, my friend, is permissible.

Back to my pathetic activity on this Monday morning…

As much as I want to get to know new people, if they don’t speak in the same wavelength, they should, by all means, switch channel.

It’s either the number of intelligent people has dramatically decreased or they are intimidated by me (of which I don’t think so)…

Btw, if the disappointment still exists, expect another round of entry from me by the end of today.

And I am going to be blunt.

Aaaargh…! It’s still Monday morning!!!

Signed with Love and sealed with a Kiss (blergh!)

-Kay-

  This is the day where I feel quite nice. The morning wasn’t as good but as the sun started to shine, the heat melted the coldness.  Physically, I am freezing here due to lack of human heat. The team is still out, bringing together the amount of heat of 3 people.  The R&D room is warmer but it’ll be better if I go to the washroom and burn my skin with the hand dryer. The problem is, it’s energy consuming just to go there (I am actually trying to deliver the message that I am too lazy to move).

The decision of having a small packet of M&M, a sardine bun and Nachos for breaking fast isn’t such a bad idea at all. And those were the ONLY thing I had for buka puasa, enough to sustain me for the rest of today.

You see, I have a small appetite. The stomach is grumbling but the temptation to eat just isn’t there.

On the other hand, my 19 year-old neighbour has just given birth to a baby boy. 19 and already a mom. My mom has me when she was 23. Just thinking about delivering a baby gives me the creep. And the first silly question I asked her is “Was it very painful?”

Like DUH!

As for now, I can’t wait for the clock to strike 5. It’s very hazy outside and I have two bills left to settle and a Touch n Go credit to top up.