My life has never been so exciting. Having to be surrounded with men with raging testosterone, it’s always become a good chance for me to discover more about things playing one their mind. No kidding that I’ve learnt a lot from them.

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I’ve been eluding Sean for as much as I possibly could due to the fact that he behaved ‘mischievously’ each time we met. The sexual tension on his part was just too visible (and before you make any conclusion, NO, I never flirted with him nor giving him ‘that type of bodylanguage’ for him to start with!) and creepy (not in a bad way la obviously kan. If yes, I would have lodged a police report against him).

So last Tuesday, I decided to give him another chance by having an after-work chat with him (and that was after a couple of postponements due to last-minute commitment and transport unavailability).

Boy, was I relieved to drive home without having to face with any advances! Surprisingly enough, I don’t mind meeting him again. He behaved well enough (hopefully till forever). What more, I even agreed to help him out on hooking him up with some resources for his second book.

Later the night, I received a series of follow-up SMSes on ‘things’ he observed throughout the meeting.

Certain things never change at all…

Boys will always be boys… :)

A situation (or two) which used to be quite a heartache have gone away concluded. It has been a very emotionally exhausting couple of weeks where I spent most of my time figuring out and reevaluating matters that put me into a position I never thought I’d be in. The subject of Feelings has never been this interesting. Thanks to a bunch of good companies, I managed to divert the focus to something far better.

Last weekend marked a new chapter in Shah’s life. He is now someone’s husband. It was a touching moment to be given the honour to be ‘a part of the family’. Thanks Shah. Sangat terharu.

Last weekend too, I went to visit my cousin who just gave birth to a cute baby boy. She is now a mom. I was with her on the very night she was being pronounced as wife till the day she has a baby to call her own. Just like watching a journey of an animal you see on the Discovery Channel.

"Ha, nanti tak lama lagi kitaorang dapat la jemputan kenduri…"

I doubt it’s going to be that soon, D.

This weekend, I’ll be having another 2 wedding receptions to attend, in which both are of my former schoolmates’. So as the next weekend. 2007 is a year for most people my age to start to tie the knot. 25 is after all a perfect age to settle down.

As a matter of fact, any age before 30 is considered perfect. :)

Of Radiance and of Hope

Last night I saw a star
Under the moonlight shining from the sky
Too beautiful, I want to capture it in a jar.

All of a sudden, the dark cloud swallowed it whole
The power so immense it was of a blackhole.

I cried for help but I knew it won’t stop
Again, I lost my another star of hope.

But I held my head up, not wanting to brawl
With the thoughts of comfort that forbids me to crawl.

Lulling my heart like a child on the lap
I sung myself not to give up
For nights will always come again
To let a new star to heal the pain.

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My girl told me she saw a star,
Wanted to take it and put it into a jar,
I looked at the sky and said to myself that’s damn far,
Can I get there by bus, taxi or drive a car?

With her own eyes she witnessed the cloud swallowing it whole,
She felt said and can’t help to think the world is so cold,
I let her know not to worry and let the story unfold,
I’m your companion and I’ll play my role,
If it’s eternal happiness is my girl ultimate goal,
I’ll do anything to ease your soul,
I’ll make u laugh and smile like a piñata on a pole,
For every time I heard your laugh it’s priceless like gold.

My verses serve with purposes,
To trigger your senses and mend up your broken pieces….

I apologize for the delay on the update.

So, I have finally completed my shadowing requirement. It was a mishmash of all sorts of emotions. Crazy and haywire so to speak.

My session with Kak Azie was a story of horror. Just when I thought I have everything in mind, the whole first half was of mistakes and many other things. Henry was there to witness me making a fool on the stage. Ask him if you want to. I don’t mind. It sent me home with dark coulds lingering above my head. Trully I was disappointed.

Bringing the Wednesday’s experience as a valuable lesson I refuse to repeat, I promised myself not to screw up again come Friday. Did my homework as usual but most part that I tended to was the mind. Focus is all I need.

Friday arrived and God knows how hard for me to concentrate on my work, especially towards the end of the day. Macam nak pengsan pun ada.

6.30 finally arrived. With Kak Ju as the instructor for that week, I prayed that I won’t give another bad impression to another one. As ‘Shine’ started, I sunk myself into the beat and let it take control.

In the end, I left the room with a proud smile. I gave myself an 8 out of 10! I recalled what Rach told me over lunch, "Don’t forget to smile." I did as told and I could see how contagious it is.

Had a long conversation with Kak Ju after the hour. She gave me her few key points on everything she could see throughout the session and one major major thing I need to improve on will definitely be… jeng jeng jeng…

Fitness Level!

No issues on other aspect but my fitness level.

Adoi, I must admit that I’m beginning to become pancit. Cardio sangat sucks! Giler tak bagus!

Okay, I WILL start my daily dose of cardio workout every evening come this week.

Another lesson learnt: Once you are a Jam instructor, do learn how to inject some attitude into your grooves based on the type of moves. Be sexy if that’s what the song is all about. Act like a ghetto if the song is about the West Side. That’s where you’ll get the magic from the members. I saw it all along from the instructors but like what they always say, you’ll only feel and know it once you’re UP THERE!

I’m looking forward for another final shadowing this Friday. Yet to get the confirmation from the respective parties.

Damn, this is contagious!

It’s already Wednesday and it is a big day. Will start my very first shadowing with Kak Azie in a couple of hours time and God how I don’t want to think about it. Back then, I would be having the member’s side of the studio but today, it’s going to be totally different. It’s the platform we’re talking about!

As planned, I already arranged for two shadowing sessions with both Kak Azie and Kak Ju this coming Friday before the new release as well as before I head back to KP come Monday.

Put on my new clothes and pair of shoes for it’s a day to celebrate…

… though I’m in the middle of trying to let go the thing I enjoy the most. Like they always say, “Obladi oblada life goes ooooonnnn… na na na na life goes on!”

It’s going to be even more depressing once I’m in KP. Haiyoh! I so have to buy a TV no matter what!

On the other hand, Azmir will be back for good by the end of this month with some chocolate (hopefully) :)

As for now, wish me luck! (with some familiar faces, I think I’ll manage. Uptown after all is where I started)

I will definitely keep you updated on my shadowing by tomorrow. :)