My job involves running around visiting schools. Along the period (which has been over 3 months now), I have developed the list of my ‘fave school’, ‘the hardest to work with’ and ’schools with hardcore teachers’.

I am in the ‘Hardest To Work With’ school now. Despite being a school in Kuala Pilah (yes, the ‘tempat giler ulu’ one might say), they have WiFi! No kidding.

This morning, I had a quick chat with one of the teachers whom I always work with when I’m in her school. Sitting way in front of us, at the corner of the room sat a male teacher, surfing the net. We were taking about new teachers in the school when she suddenly whispered to me this:

"Cikgu dekat depan tu pun baru. But dia ada masalah sikit…"

She then pointed her index finger to her forehead.

"… ada screw loose sikit."

I didn’t know how to react so I just uttered an ‘Oh?’.

"Ha-ah. Kalau bercakap dengan dia, macam tak paham apa yang dia nak cerita. Cerita dia selalu tak berkait. Macam tetiba je dia masuk topik lain. Dia ni pun jenis berlagak skali."

"Really? Macam mana tu?"

"Macam aritu, tetiba dia join and cakap something pasal girlfriend dia. Memang takda kaitan langsung lah!"

"Oh…"

Well, I personally don’t mind if someone wants to interject my conversation with unrelated topic but he/she must make it short enough and then he/she should walk away to allow me to continue my discussion.

I can tolerate braggarts but they should not do it excessively and walk away after that rather than sticking around.

Coming back to my conversation with the teacher, I have a few conclusions in mind, that:

a) Some people, or rather most people still don’t have the capability to tolerate with eccentric people.
b) If you want to become a teacher and you are not the typical girl/boy next door (ie: eccentric), you have to have the strength to stand for your ownself for school politics amongst teachers can be lethal. This is not a fact I purposely made up…

Other than that, have a nice Tuesday!

It’s Thursday and another few hours to Friday.

Thursday merupakan hari yang paling dinanti-natikan setiap minggu selain Jumaat.

Need I tell you why???

I can have the access to Friendster without having to keep my fingers crossed. In these 3 days, the access to Friendster had been smooth. No more the annoying KPM logo.

I guess the server maintenance workers have recently joined Friendster. After having to face total frustration each time the page being blocked, they have decided to allow Friendster to pass the security.

Ye lah..susah la kan if they want to give comments and add new friends or browse profiles kalau each time kena block je…

Or maybe this is just a temporary celebration, that their firewall has been breached by some smart aleck who is sick and tired of not being able to approve friend request.

If that’s the case, they should start to do more readings. It’s been three days and I still can write and view my profile freely.

But I’ll stick to the first possibility. People are being nice to you so just assume that they have mellowed! :)

On the lighter note, I am doing OK still. The day crawls oh so slowly and I am struggling to keep up with the pace… (though sometimes rasa macam nak gila pun ada…).

I guess, I’ll stay overnight at Mak Teh’s house. The car needs some TLC (ie. WASHING). At least I can catch the 6.30 pm drama and 9.30 pm Susuk as well as 10 pm Puteri and later zoom home if I suddenly change my mind, which will likely to happen.

See! It isn’t that bad after all.

Jolly!

Women are stupider when it comes to love.

It depends on one’s interpretation of stupid.

‘Stupid’ can mean not having enough knowledge.

‘Stupid’ can mean lack of the ability to process inputs.

‘Stupid’ can mean having the awareness of the consequences of the action but refuse to acknowledge the hunches and simply go for it.

‘Stupid’ can mean blaming yourself for the action you take when you know it’s going to happen to you.

‘Stupid’ can also mean deciding to stay blind towards the good things presented in front of you and later regret the decision after you are already in neck-deep shit.

Well I guess, having to read the variation of definition we have for the word ’stupid’, one will be able to see that everything falls into the same basket; that stupidity exists not beyond one’s awareness.

Or maybe it does but once you’ve gained contact with your inner stupidity, you have all the ‘next plans of action’ to consider.

That’s the time when your wit is being tested, ya know, to see if you can break the stupidity and make a wise decision to overshadow it.

So getting back to the first sentence of this entry, if you think saying ‘Yes’ to all the requests from the guy (I mean EVERYTHING) is considered as stupid, I just have to agree with you.

Us women tend to follow blindly what our hearts tell us to do. Sad but true. And as much as we have the senses intact, we always tell ourselves that it’s okay to do so when the fact that it’s an obvious No-No…

… like giving him the 6th chance when you caught him on bed with a hot chick that looks like Amber Chia.

Or saying that ‘He’s broke and as a good girlfriend I should support him to show my love’ when asking you for cash is his new monthly habit.

Or perhaps agreeing to his request of having sex with you when your brain says it’s not right to do so.

As much as I hate looking at these facts, I have to agree to today’s morning topic in MixFM… that us women can get very stupid when we’re in love.

The best thing to do now is not to let the stupidity gets in our way. That can only be achieved by listening to what BOTH your mind and heart say.

Simple as that.

Tapi ada jugak yang tak faham-faham bahasa and make decisions based on the never-ending ‘What Ifs’ like yours trully.

So I pray to God to give me all the petunjuk in the world.

Amin together with me y’all.

So I’ve completed my shadow requirement. Everything went well according to plan. As a matter of fact, I did four of them. We’ll be having another assessment come Thursday and if it’s not because of the birthday of YDP of Negeri Sembilan, I would’ve had to skip it again.

There’s a slight change of plan. Instead of getting a Neo for my 25th birthday, I am going to get a NikeShox instead. Way cheaper than a Neo but that’s the pair of shoes I am going to wear most of the time  on stage and during other classes. At the same time, I am thinking of getting myself a notebook. I still love my desktop very much and will always love it but for mobility sake, I strongly feel the need of getting one. Tapi tu hanyalah plan selepas kasut sebab not that crucial pun…

I have reached a point where I am in the midst of terrible writers block… of not having things to talk about and of not having the mood to merapu.

My Penang trip with Sean has been canceled. God wants to protect me from benda-benda jahat tu. However, I will still carry on the plan with Boy to Penang if he allows me to tag along la… AND if the plan is carried out during school holiday. Otherwise, it’s the Jakarta trip I have to wait for, which is in December.

Oh yeah, do remind me not to make any stupid decision again.