I’m not sure if my Bangkok trip is still on or the otherwise. Looking at the amount of cash I have put aside for this trip, which is none, there’s a part of me that silently wishes for it not to materialize. And don’t talk me into getting the cash from my savings as 1) Having some cash in my savings is SOMETHING and I am not going to lay a finger on that account, and 2) Mom holds the money. Taking ‘em from her is like trying to extract honey from the hive. Bahaya! (Sebab kena bebel that is).

But I will still ikat perut this month. Even if I am not able to bring 1k to Bangkok, it is still better than nothing. I am not going for a shopping spree. Just for some sight seeing.

And okay la… I’m willing to not stay in a proper hotel room if it helped on my budget…

So, July is about bulan mengikat perut. Memandangkan puasa ganti belum dijalankan lagi, alasan ini boleh digunakan. Bak kata pepatah, “Sambil menyelam minum air.” Dan duit allowance makan harus digunakan dengan bijak. RM200 (or rather, RM150 selepas TGIF semalam) for the remaining 28 days.

Any craving must be stopped! Only cravings for things below RM10 are allowed.

And cravings for Lala dibenarkan kerana raw lala will cost you less than RM10.

Cravings for Chilli’s perlu disuarakan kepada orang lain.

Ya know what I mean… :)

Ignore the spelling mistakes, grammatical errors or stuffs. This is a raw, unedited conversation. Enjoy.

omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:33:12 AM): hey
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:33:13 AM): i’m a malay (methinks?)
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:33:25 AM): and i’m not insensitive and ungentlemanic, mkay?
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:33:31 AM): (marah ni!!)
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:33:34 AM): hahahaha

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:35:12 AM): kudos to u for not being one

omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:35:45 AM): who were u talking about, anyway?

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:37:33 AM): a jerk at the petrol station this morning

omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:38:34 AM): oh
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:38:35 AM): what happened?

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:39:54 AM): biasa la q at the counter
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:40:08 AM): this kampung malay man queued beside me
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:40:14 AM): and i came first
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:40:41 AM): if hes sensitive and berbudi bahasa enough, hed gv the turn to me because i deserve it
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:40:47 AM): but instead, he cut my line
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:41:02 AM): i wanted to say it out loud but its useless
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:41:18 AM): first- i dont want to create a scene
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:41:42 AM): second- i dont want the argument to totally ruin my mood for the day

omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:42:23 AM): dah la tu
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:42:27 AM): takde point pun u argue

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:42:27 AM): third- despite the ketidakpuasan hati, i am glad to know that he just showed me that he’s a typical malay man

omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:42:43 AM): there are idiots in this world

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:42:50 AM): in which to me, these typical ppl ni hanya worth to be called stupids jek

omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:43:04 AM): let them be, idiocy is already a punishment to them

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:43:05 AM): so macam tak berbaloi la kan to argue with stupids
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:43:19 AM): but itll be good if they know they are stupid
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:44:26 AM): that if stupidity is not that transparent, as in for instance, a permanent ‘im stupid’ phrase on their forehead or such
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:45:03 AM): at least i can treat em as a bunch of retards

omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:45:09 AM): hehehe
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:45:16 AM): well
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:45:16 AM): it’s enough for u to know, kan?

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:45:18 AM): u know retards deserve special treatments kan
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:45:34 AM): i guess so but good things are to be shared

omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:48:49 AM): yeah
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:48:56 AM): orang cacat

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:52:00 AM): so yeah
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:52:26 AM): but it just makes me think la kenapa susah nak dapat malay men yg gentleman enough
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:52:41 AM): and the whole journey to office was spent thinking abt this
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:54:50 AM): does that happen due to our race punya policy yg men are the ruler and everybody , esp women must abide and respect them which include serving em, giving em the turn to anything
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:55:43 AM): n make ourselves as a bunch of damsel in distress?
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:55:54 AM): thats fucking BS

omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:56:00 AM): well
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:56:45 AM): hehe
omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:56:45 AM): itu kiasuism

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:56:50 AM): we are soo much engrossed with the ketuanan melayu punya shit and these malay men think that the ketuanan exists till now
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:56:56 AM): the hell with that la

omark.geo (6/27/2008 11:57:30 AM): well, i believe that is not related but

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:57:34 AM): we dont really need gender equality stit
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:57:37 AM): *shit
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:57:46 AM): c’mon la neo
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:57:59 AM): admit it that it does have some relation to that
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:58:09 AM): mana tak jatuh kuah kalau tak ke nasik?
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:58:29 AM): ego malay men terlalu tinggi
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:59:39 AM): i HARDLY get malay men yg dont mind giving their turn to me if ada confusion on the queing
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 11:59:55 AM): its always the non malays
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:00:20 PM): and dont tell me that they were just merely coincidences

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:01:16 PM): hahahaha
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:01:20 PM): not all of them, kay
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:01:41 PM): and there are those of other races with such mentality, too
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:01:52 PM): depends on the education level of the user

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:06:58 PM): malay makes up the majority and they are everywhere
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:10:40 PM): but why the non-malays jek buat i tak question abt their courteous manner
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:11:35 PM): id be a liar if i dont question abt the non-malays at times but how come…
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:12:07 PM): how cme i have two different remarks on them?
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:12:43 PM): like, if a non-malay guy cut my line, id say that he’s a jerk
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:13:18 PM): but why do i go “typical malay asshole” if a malay guy did the same?
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:13:42 PM): it’s just the upbringing la neo
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:14:04 PM): u have two options to raise ur kids

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:14:36 PM): hehe
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:14:37 PM): i see
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:14:43 PM): you’re a bit biased against malays, i think

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:14:45 PM): 1. tell them that a guy should be tough in everything and musnt let go the ego no matter what, thus u have to follow what i tell u to do
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:16:49 PM): and 2. tell them that a guy should be tough in everything BUT HAVE RESPECT TO OTHER PPL ESP THE WOMEN, THUS U HAVE TO MAKE SURE THAT U TREAT THEM WELL AND NOT JUST FOLLOW UR EGO
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:17:10 PM): AND THERE SHOULD BE A GIVE-AND-TAKE TYPE OF UNDERSTANDING
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:17:39 PM): im sorry if i do sound biased towards the typical malay men but thats the fact
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:18:01 PM): i wont complain over things yg seldom happen
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:19:32 PM): sigh

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:20:18 PM): hehehe
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:20:21 PM): well
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:20:28 PM): bad upbringing omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:20:29 PM): but then
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:20:35 PM): it’s common in asia lah
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:20:37 PM): like
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:20:40 PM): courtesy is lacking in people arnd here
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:21:17 PM): not like those european counterparts

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:21:51 PM): i wouldnt narrow it down to one race if it involves men in general, neo..
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:22:08 PM): i admit we are all a bunch of jerks
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:22:14 PM): regardless of men or women
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:22:48 PM): but i narrowed my case down to what were having here

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:23:23 PM): hahahahahaha

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:24:03 PM): oh whatever la

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:24:19 PM): seriously, you’re a bit biased.
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:24:19 PM): but it’s your opinion

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:24:24 PM): the thing is, i wont complain if it comes from men in general

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:24:49 PM): i do but i wont make such a big fuss over it la
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:25:13 PM): i understand it because ur a malay man
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:25:37 PM): but then again, if ur not one, u shouldnt be feeling anything abt it
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:26:12 PM): even if u mentioned uneducated non-malays
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:26:15 PM): but c’mon la
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:26:28 PM): education dsnt mean u excell in ur mannerism
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:28:08 PM): and why do u think many prodigies end up dead as a bunch of depressed and stressful people if they are smart enough? iq maybe but eq? dont think so

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:30:45 PM): actually i feel nothing about it
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:30:52 PM): and i don’t feel offended by your statement
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:31:33 PM): but seriously
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:31:46 PM): the thing is yes, prolly upbringing
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:32:03 PM): and that the malays constitute the majority of the population
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:32:18 PM): u’d see otherwise if we’re the minority
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:32:29 PM): the courtesy situation was raised in singapore

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:35:42 PM): the thing is, the malay holds the majority population
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:36:24 PM): and if they (im talking abt u men) have good manner, i will raise this issue at the first place
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:36:40 PM): because as i go anywhere, ill see most of em on the road
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:37:14 PM): but how come the courtesy is always given by the non malays?
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:38:03 PM): does that mean i live or i hang out at the places frequently visited by non-malays?

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:38:03 PM): like i said, upbringing

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:38:11 PM): alah neo omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:38:30 PM): heheh
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:38:35 PM): even yg so called hip and happening and so called kaya pun kayap when it comes to manners

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:39:03 PM): hahahah
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:39:10 PM): they think they’re in ‘power’ la kan

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:39:21 PM): so that’s why these malay men tak boleh nak melatah bila ppl cakap malay ppl ni sebenarnya takda manner

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:39:25 PM): bak kata orang
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:39:25 PM): ‘melayu mudah lupa’

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:39:37 PM): so much for membesar2kan the adat ketimuran shit
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:40:14 PM): so do u still see me as being very biased towards the malays esp the men now?
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:41:01 PM): i dont make a super huge fuss over things yg petty
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:41:39 PM): but thats the bitter truth
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:42:11 PM): and because of the macho, ego shit la malay women prefer to marry non malays
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:42:43 PM): tu belum lagi i sentuh bab lelaki yg suruh wives berenti keja sbb cemburu buta

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:42:46 PM): hehe
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:42:46 PM): so marry me, kay
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:42:51 PM): dgn bangganya i ckp i bukan malay

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:42:53 PM): but thats entirely a diff story

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:42:54 PM): hahahahah omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:43:07 PM): but then

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:43:12 PM): oh yeah and u want to make me ur what? 1st wife? 2nd wife?

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:43:16 PM): personally
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:43:21 PM): on the road la
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:43:24 PM): usually yg kasi i jalan dulu
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:43:31 PM): rarely it’s the women

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:43:42 PM): that i have to admit

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:43:56 PM): tatkala time i in a dangerous junction

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:43:57 PM): women can be such a dumbass when it comes to driving

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:44:23 PM): *shrug*

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:44:27 PM): we tend to overanalyze sampai membahayakan org lain

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:44:29 PM): sape cepat dia dulu la
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:44:30 PM): hahahahah

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:44:46 PM): but im not one of the dumbasses
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:45:09 PM): i will admit things if they are really me
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:45:33 PM): so yeah

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:46:25 PM): so
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:46:40 PM): sometimes kay
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:47:06 PM): charity is demanded from all of us
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:47:07 PM): it’s up to who who’d be willing to give

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:47:39 PM): unfortunately, malay men tend to be a bit stingy, dont u think?

omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:48:09 PM): in what terms?
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:48:19 PM): and i didn’t mean just monetary charity
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:48:21 PM): time
omark.geo (6/27/2008 12:48:30 PM): and even ego

wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:48:40 PM): and i dont mean that either
wickedbabysitter (6/27/2008 12:49:21 PM): money doesnt even have anything to do with my complaints

This is so uncool. My cycle has changed again. But then again, I should be thankful that it eventually came. 26 with very irregular menses is soo not cool. In an uncomfortable way, I’m glad the cramps are back.

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It took us 4 years to see the return of Urbanscapes! And as usual, my focus is entirely on the Cinetheater. Tiket belum dibeli but knowing me, it definitely is going to be another last minute affair. With the amount of cash yang cukup-cukup makan, I have to resist the temptation to get anything from the booths.

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With around 2 months before Bangkok, I’ve yet to set aside some cash for the trip. If it involves real deal pampering period, I need to bring REAL amount of cash.

Alamak! It’s going to be one hell of a bloody trip! (pun intended).

Okay, I so very need a painkiller now!

Maybe I should start to worry about it. False alarm is soo not cool, ya know.

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I didn’t quite get the amount of sweating I should get per week. Tuesday with no heavy weights and only cardio wasn’t adequate (porah! Panting like there’s no Oxygen lepas Jive Swing and Jumpin’ Jack kata tak adequate???).

Supposed to join the Jam Team for their rehearsal on Wednesday but I had to cancel it due to last minute cancellation of a last minute appointment, which made me heal the wound (kachiwa okeh!) by cooking Lala upon reaching home kerana kelaparan yang teramat. Nonetheless, I love my Lala to bits. :)

Had a great time in the rehearsal. ‘Just about to get there’ Butterfly Jump. Need more improvement on overcoming the fear. Come to think of it, what fear am I dealing with actually?

Another last minute cancellation on Friday’s session due to Miracle 2008. There goes another sweating session. Looking at the bright side, I got to sate my craving for Smoked Salmon salad. :)

I can never tolerate high level of stupidity. What more when it involves stupid people with rotten attitude. To make it a lot worse, it’s caused by my own people - The Malays.

So, don’t go all angry when other races label us as ‘A Bunch of Lazy People’. And don’t even bother to complain to me about not getting enough business opportunities. They are always there. Cuma kamu-kamu ni ja yang malas nak hunt for them…

Too bad…

But of course la kan… “siapa makan cili, dia rasa pedasnya”.