Perhaps, this is the month where bad things decide to happen. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t see it as the unlucky month, nor associating it with any movement of the planets, astrologically speaking that is.

Perhaps being in the center of the year, June is seen as the sharp corner, the transition from something to something. That something could be good and that something could be bad. It is pretty much depending on your situation.

This month…

I was a victim of snatch theif.

The Boss lost her cat and a kitten.

My step grandmother is being in and out of the hospital and not really doing good up till this moment.

MJ passed away.

Farah Fawcett passed away.

RB is struggling with his work

Zahra lost a friend due to an accident.

G is struggling to solve the issue with his contract and house agreement in the UK.

I’m sure there are more in this Month of Grief.

Despite those events, there are also happy moments to some of us.

Weed’s sister is now married. :)

A friend is getting ready to embark upon a new career, which she is very much looking forward to. :)

The Company received a few quite big projects. :)

I get to reunite with a classmate whom I haven’t seen for 7 years, who is happily married to a nice guy. :)

I get to meet my old school & classmates. :)

I get to do unsupported headstand even just for a few seconds. :)

And those are just a few of the happiness some of us and I get out of June.

Regardless of whatever unfavourable things happened to us, have patience, be calm, acknowledge our feeling instead of suppressing it.

Take your time but don’t forget to heal in the process.

Have a nice weekend ahead!

xoxo

-K-

One:

I wasted 10 bucks for Bonne Belle lipsticks.

Me? Lipsticks?

I’m a gloss person.

Two:

June has been quite a month for some of the people in my circle, including myself. I’ll wrap it soon.

Three:

Maybe I ought to just do what I do and decide about what I should do next when I am pretty sure that I want to do what I want to do.

Four:

In the mean time, these are a few things I need to do:

1. Sam to vet for checkup

2. Family & RB to dinner

3. Replace Liyana’s bag

4. Get the ATM cards before Pay Day

5. Service the car, check the brake pads

6. Monthly waxing

7. Replace the car alarm

Things I want to do:

1. Continue my search for a pair of new jeans

2. Add blouses

3. A trip to Petaling Street

4. A pair of shoes

For now, the Want List will be secondary. In the end, the Need is more important.

Oh! I pretty much covered my To-Do List already! :)

Big boobs.

The abs in on the way.

It’s bloating due to my monthly affair.

:D

A couple of days post-The Incident, I thought I was fine. I thought I was until I was having a chat with a colleague about it.

I had to fight the urge to break down.

That was the  time when I know I am not fine and that I am in shock.

The mind is being in denial.

Yes, I was calm.
Yes, I was in control.
Yes, I could think straight.

That is what my logical mind tells me.

But the emotion shouts the otherwise.

As I get in touch with my inner self, I was told that I am not still not okay.

Not recovered yet.
Not yet ‘normalized’.

It almost breaks my heart when I was told that mom cried upon reading the note I left for her on the table.

I called her in the morning to provide her the assurance that I am physically unharmed.

But we both know that emotionally, we are as disturbed.

My sincerest thank you to Hams for driving me to the locations, Zahra for diverting my thoughts with her usual antics :), Weeds for checking me out if I’m doing fine *hugs*, The Boss for the checklist and reminder :), MA for the hug and green tea (though I resisted the coffee temptation) :P, People of The Spa for the good company over dinner and the other few people who knew about it.

But most importantly, my biggest thank you to RB for giving me he hugs, the time he had to sacrifice despite the amount of work he has to deal with, the Chevy he loaned me for a night and providing me with just the right amount of support I need.

My prayers to all of you and the rest who are reading this.

Thursday Morning…

“Feel as if I woke up at the wrong side of the bed. Not really in a good mood…”

“… Can I help in a way to cheer you up?”

You don’t have to. Your reply is already enough to make me feel better…

:-*

Thursday Evening…

“Guess what?! I was able to do headstand! Unsupported headstand! Well, even for a few seconds before leaning on the wall again lah.”

and

“Perhaps going for futsal and dinner afterwards on Thursdays can be made as our weekly routine. At least I won’t go home hungry!”

Looking forward to this feel-good Thursday routine.

:)

Friday  Afternoon…

“I have a proposal for you to consider. Since you are good in this area, why not we work together like a partnership and such?”

“Thanks for the offer but let me just be straightforward to you. I have a principle and it involves offering people with the real stuffs. In this industry, it is about giving genuine goods AND dealing with people who appreciates what I’m offering. I hope you understand.”

Mineral oil as substitute to vegetable oils? Fragrances to replace essential oils and ‘Happy Ending’ massages instead of the non- hanky panky ones?

These people make me cringe!

:/